Current mood:

drained

frustration

life is beyond frustrating.

I can't keep anything straight. Everytime that I try to sort out an issue someone throws something else in my path that needs tended to. Today, something went missing that shouldn't have and I handled like we do everything else in this house. I went to work and pretended that it didn't happen. mean while because of said incident I had to get an advance from my manager to cover some things.

then there was the whole lets race to get to the laundramant and me hitting the truck....yeah wish that hadn't happend...plus, wedding this weekend, this ought to be fun. have I mentioned that I HATE weddings with a passion. not specifically this one, just in general. All that mussy lets be happy shit.

true confession time, I think you have the right to know this, I'm not sure if I told you or not, but if it seems that hunter and I are reminising about stuff...don't sweat it, here is the reason why. Hunter and I actually planed everything but the location of where we were gonna get married this october...obviously that isn't gonna happen, but the thought and time went into it and it might cause a bit or contraversy come october...I don't think it will be a problem for sunday cause the thought probably hasn't crossed his mind and I know that I shouldn't let it bother me but there are a lot of unresolved issues there.

I want you to know these things cause I know that it might get confussing and I just can't seem to find the right words to tell you when we have the chance.

I want to talk about it, but I just don't think that it's one of those conversations that is going to be easy for us. kinda like the other night.

Why bring it all out now...well cause it just seemed like a good time to write and as things have been hectic the past few days to say the least I needed to clear my mind a little. Not that it will do any good...but maybe it will keep the sharp things out of my hand....